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Best of 2005 Mixtape

Since cybermark asked. The past couple years in December I've made a "Ethan's Best of 200X" mixtape and traded it with my cousins. I always end up changing it around a few times. Here was the final draft for 2005.   Song Title-Artist-Album (no those aren't links, i would up them all, but it's too risky with the random bannings going on, lol)   01. Good Morning - Cage - Hell's Winter 02. The Arrival - Atmosphere - You Can't Imagine How Much Fun We're Having 03. Story of Our Lives - Twiztid - Man's Myth : Volume 1 04. Bolivia - Esham - A-1 Yola 05. The Buzz Kill - Sage Francis - A Healthy Distrust 06. Shvanie - Glukoza - Moskva 07. Murder Ya Life (remix) - Necro - Street Villains Volume 2 08. Grand Ol' Party Crash - Cage - Hell's Winter 09. Nobody Moves - Insane Clown Posse featuring Mack 10 - Forgotten Freshness Volume 4 10. Subtle Art of a Break Up Song - Cage - Hell's Winter 11. Smart Went Crazy - Atmosphere - You Can't Imagine How Much Fun We're Having 12. Stripes - Cage - Hell's Winter 13. Unhappy/The President - Esham - A-1 Yola 14. Feels So Right - Insane Clown Posse - Forgotten Freshness Volume 4 15. Shut Me Up - Mindless Self Indulgence - You'll Rebel to Anything 16. Determined - Mudvayne - Lost & Found 17. The Argument - Twiztid - Man's Myth : Volume 1 18. Sea Lion - Sage Francis - A Healthy Distrust 19. Familiar - Twiztid - Mutant : Volume 2 20. Respirator - Twiztid - Mutant : Volume 2 21. Kurt Kobain - Proof - Searching for Jerry Garcia   songs that got bumped in the process - When I'm Gone - Eminem, Goldigger - Kanye West, some others i don't fucking remember.

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Carnival Top 25 11-12

(#) = previously   1. Ohio State 11-0 (1) 2. Michigan 11-0 (2) 3. USC 8-1 (10) 4. Florida 9-1 (6) 5. Arkansas 9-1 (15) 6. Rutgers 9-0 (16) 7. Louisville 8-1 (3) 8. West Virginia 8-1 (7) 9. Notre Dame 9-1 (9) 10. Auburn 9-2 (5) 11. LSU 8-2 (11) 12. Oklahoma 8-2 (14) 13. Boise St. 10-0 (13) 14. Wisconsin 10-1 (17) 15. Wake Forest 9-1 (18) 16. California 8-2 (8) 17. Texas 9-2 (4) 18. Tennessee 7-3 (12) 19. Georgia Tech 8-2 (19) 20. Boston College 8-2 (20) 21. Virginia Tech 8-2 (21) 22. Maryland 8-2 (23) 23. BYU 8-2 (25) 24. Clemson 8-3 (NR) 25. Nebraska 8-3 (NR)   others - Oregon, Hawaii, Texas A&M, Missouri, Georgia

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Carnival Top 25 11-05

(#) = previously   1. Ohio State 10-0 (1) 2. Michigan 10-0 (2) 3. Louisville 8-0 (4) 4. Texas 9-1 (5) 5. Auburn 9-1 (6) 6. Florida 8-1 (7) 7. West Virginia 7-1 (3) 8. California 8-1 (9) 9. Notre Dame 8-1 (10) 10. USC 7-1 (11) 11. LSU 7-2 (12) 12. Tennessee 7-2 (8) 13. Boise St. 9-0 (13) 14. Oklahoma 7-2 (14) 15. Arkansas 8-1 (15) 16. Rutgers 8-0 (17) 17. Wisconsin 9-1 (18) 18. Wake Forest 8-1 (25) 19. Georgia Tech 7-2 (20) 20. Boston College 7-2 (16) 21. Virginia Tech 7-2 (21) 22. Oregon 7-2 (23) 23. Maryland 7-2 (NR) 24. Texas A&M 8-2 (22) 25. BYU 7-2 (NR)   others - Clemson, Oregon State, Nebraska, Hawaii, Missouri

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Carnival Top 25 09-09

(#) = previous   1. West Virginia 2-0 (1) 2. Florida 2-0 (2) 3. LSU 2-0 (3) 4. USC 1-0 (4) 5. Oklahoma 2-0 (9) 6. Arkansas 1-0 (7) 7. Louisville 2-0 (5) 8. Ohio State 2-0 (6) 9. California 2-0 (8) 10. Texas 2-0 (13) 11. Rutgers 2-0 (16) 12. Wisconsin 2-0 (10) 13. Virginia Tech 1-1 (11) 14. Boston College 2-0 (16) 15. Hawaii 2-0 (14) 16. Nebraska 2-0 (18) 17. Tennessee 1-1 (19) 18. Missouri 2-0 (20) 19. Georgia Tech 2-0 (NR) 20. Penn State 2-0 (24) 21. UCLA 2-0 (NR) 22. South Carolina 2-0 (NR) 23. South Florida 2-0 (NR) 24. Auburn 1-1 (12) 25. TCU 1-1 (23)   others - Oregon 2-0 (NR), Georgia 1-1 (17), Clemson 2-0 (NR), Texas A&M 2-0 (NR), Wake Forest 0-2 (NR),

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Survey

Time to do one of these Livejournal-esque surveys.....copy if you'd like   BASICS 001. What is your name: Ethan 002. Spell your name backwards: Nahte 003. Birth day: April 6, 1982 004. Male or female: Male 005. Astrological sign: Aries 006. Nicknames: none really 007. Occupation: Tech support 008. Height: 6'2" 009. Weight: 145lbs 010. Hair color: brown. 011. Eye color: Hazel, it changes colors from green to grey to brown. 012. Where were you born: Pawnee City, NE. 013. Where do you reside now: Lincoln, NE. 015. Screen names: FiveDollarFetus (AIM), madrox200 (yahoo). 016. E-mail addy: yahoo 017. What does your screen name stand for: nothing really. 018. What is your TSM name: CarnivalizComing 019. What does your TSM name stand for: the carnival's arrival 020. Pets: 2 cats. 021. .. of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake: no cake 022. Piercings: none 023. Tattoos: None, yet. 024. Shoe size: 11.5 025. Righty or lefty: Righty. 026. Wearing: Atmosphere Tshirt and jeans 027. Hearing: people talk about DSL 028. Feeling: tired 029. Eating/drinking: a coke   LOVE 061. Have you ever been in love: Yeah. 062. How many people have you said "I love you" to: family 063. How many people have you been in love with: 1. 064. How many people have you kissed: no clue 065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex: not sexually 066. How many people have you dated: probably dated only about 5 067. What do you look for in a guy/girl: Ass, boobs, bitchyness level 068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: Ass, boobs 069. What type of guy / girl do you usually go for: Goth 073. Do you have a crush right now: yes 074. If so who is it: HTQ..don't tell him. 075. Do you believe in love at first sight: No. 076. Do you remember your first love: Yeah. 077. Who is the first person you kissed: can't remember 078. Do you believe in fate: No 079. Do you believe in soul mates: No 080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours: n/a   ENTERTAINMENT 121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life: i don't know 122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own: DC Talk or Mortal Kombat soundtracks 123. What's the best cd you own: Dark Lotus - Tales from the Lotus Pod 124. What song do you absolutely hate: "homies" ICP 125. Do you sing in the shower: sometimes 126. What song reminds you of that special someone: "modern man's hustle" Atmosphere FAVOURITES 152. Color: Red/Black/Green. 153. Food: Pizza i guess 154. Song: "nothing's left" ICP 155. Show: Family Guy, Futurama, The Cosby Show, Aqua Teens, Fresh Prince, Roseanne, wrestling 156. School subject: History 157. Band/singer/artist: rapper: Violent J or Monoxide 159. Outfit: ? 160. Radio station: None..I hate the radio. 161. Movie: Sixth Sense, Big Money Hustlas 162. Pair of shoes: Orange Nike Chanjos 163. Cartoon: Futurama, Family Guy, Aqua teens 164. Actor: Bruce Willis, Will Smith 165. Actress: ? 166. Potato chip: BBQ or Jalapano 167. Drink: Mountain Dew 168: Soda: Mountain Dew 169. Holiday: Christmas 170. Perfume/cologne: Tommy or Very Sexy 171. Pizza topping: Cheese, pepperoni, mushrooms, black olives. 172. Jello flavor: lime 173. Lunch meat: Honey Turkey. 174. Card game: Poker i guess 175. Video game: Mortal Kombats 176. Website: none 177. Book: Foley's. Violent J's 178. Computer game: None 180. Cereal: Frosted Flakes 181. Comedian: Mitch Hedberg..RIP 182. Dessert: none 183. Disney character: Scar from the Lion King 187. Childhood toy: Toy Dinosaurs 189. Candy bar: Reese's. 190. Magazine: i used to read The Source...until i found out they were racist. 191. Salad dressing: Ranch, Dorthy Lynch 192. Thing to do on the weekend: sleep, watch wrestling DVD's 194. Season: Summer 196. Person to talk to online: smarks   SLEEP 197. What color are your sheets: Gray with black swirlie things. 198. What color are your bedroom walls: White. 199. Do you have posters on your wall: Yeah a couple. 200. If so of what: kittie and korn all my gf's 201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom: Yeah. 202. How many pillows are on your bed: 4 203. What do you normally sleep in: undies. 205. What size bed do you have: Full. 206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed: No, I just have a BED. I have a fold-out couch in my living room..if that even qualifies as a second bed. 207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom: No. 209. Describe the last nightmare you had: i don't know, something about vampires 210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: no 211. How many people can comfortably sleep comfortably in your bed? 2 212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions: On my back or on my left side 213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling: No. 214. Do you snore: no 215. How about drool: No. 216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room: 2..Kari's and mine 217. What color is the carpet in your room: I don't know..an off-white color? 218. What's under your bed: Nothing..there is no "under my bed". There's just a mattress, then box springs, then floor.   &THIS OR THAT 219. Loser / wannabe: loser 220. Doughnuts / bagels: doughnuts 221. Day / night: night 222. Wicked witch of the east / wicked witch of the west: eastside 223. Heaven / hell: duh 224. Make love / have sex: sex 225. Coffee / tea: both 226. Hamburgers / hotdogs: Hamburgers. 227. Rap / rock: rap 228. Britney / Christina: Christina. 234. McDonalds / Taco Bell: taco bell 235. Sweet / sour: both 236. Punk / emo: niether 237. Hot / cold: hot 238. Winter / summer: Summer. 239. Spring / fall: Spring. 240. Operas / plays: niether 241. Read / watch tv: Watch TV. 242. CDs / tapes: CDs. 243. DVDs / VHS: DVDs. 244. Old / new: Both are good, depends, though. 245. Shorts / skirts: Shorts on me, skirts on girls 246. Pink / red: Red. 247. Colored pictures / B&W photos: Colored. 248. Meat / vegetables: meat 249. Mexican food / Chinese food: Mexican 250. Commercials / infomercials: Infomercials 251. Scary movies / comedies: scary 252. Bikinis / one piece bathing suits: Bikinis, not on me   HAVE YOU EVER 331. Mooned anyone: Yeah. 332. Been on a diet: nope 333. Been to a foreign country: nope 334. Broken a bone: yes, my arm 335. Swallowed a toothcap/filling: nope 336. Swear at a teacher: yep 337. Talked to an TSM member via e-mails or instant messages: no 338. Got in a fight: ya 339. Dated a teacher: No. 340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants: no 341. Thought about killing your enemy: maybe 342. Gone skinny dipping: no 343. Met another TSM member in the flesh: no 344. Told a little white lie: yes 345. Told a secret you swore not to tell: yes 346. Stolen anything: yes 347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid: I don't know? 348. Been on TV: front row nitro 349. Been on the radio: No. 350. Been in a mosh pit: Yeah. 351. Been to a concert: Yeah. 352. Dated one of your best friends: no 353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry: no 354. Deceived somebody close to you: Probably. 355. Broken the law: Yeah. 356. Been to a rodeo: damnit, once. 357. Been on a talk show: No. 358. Been on a game show: No. 359. Been on an airplane: No 360. Got to ride on a firetruck: yes. 361. Came close to dying: i took a massive neck bump when i rolled my car, thats the closest. 363. Gave someone a piggy back ride: Yeah. 364. Terrorized a babysitter: no. 365. Made a mud pie: No. 366. Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff: ya. 367. Snuck out of the house at night: Yes. 368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name: no. 370. Felt like you didn't belong: Sure. 371. Felt like the 3rd wheel: Oh yeah. 372. Smoked: yes 373. Done drugs: weed thats it. 374. Been arrested: Nope. 375. Had your tonsils removed: No. 376. Gone to camp: basketball camp 377. Won a bet: ya. 378. Written a love letter: probably back in JR high. 379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love: sure. 380. Written a love poem: no 381. Kissed in the rain: No. 382. Slow danced with someone you love: no, god this thing is emo. 383. Went on webcam nude: i showed my dick to some girl once. 384. Faked an orgasm: no 385. Stolen a kiss: no 386. Asked a friend for relationship advice: sure 387. Had a friend steal your boyfriend / girlfriend: nah, they've tried 388. Watched the sunset / rise with someone you love: no. 389. Gotten a speeding ticket: yes. 390. Done jail time: No. 391. Had to wear a uniform to work: no 392. Won a trophy: sure 393. Thrown up in public: no 394. Bowled a perfect game: No. 395. Failed / got held back: No. 396. Got perfect attendance: No. 400. Cut yourself: haha no 425. Do you believe in aliens: maybe, not sure 426. Name three things that are next to your computer: Cigarettes, mountain dew, cell phone. 427. Do you have any hidden talents: no 428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos: MTV is horrible. 429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be: ? 430. What would your movie star name be: Ethan? 431. Do you play any sports: I played basketball in HS and college, thats it. 432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen: the ring maybe? 433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently: STAR WARS. 434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen: Kill Bill. I didn't even finish it. 435. Do you drive: Yes. 436. What is your dream car: a new style mercury cougar 437. Do you think you are good looking: sure 438. Do others think you are good looking: sure 439. Would you ever sky dive: No. 440. Do you believe in Bigfoot: probably not 441. How many rooms do you have in your house: In my APARTMENT? 4...5 if you want to include my closet. Haha. 442. Are you afraid of roller coasters: yes 456. What is your weakness: Cigarettes. 457. Name something you can't get enough of: Cigarettes,porn, and mountain dew 458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: no 459. How many kids do you want to have: 2..one boy, one girl. 462. What is your ideal way to die: ? 463. How do you release stress: i don't 470. Who is the last person to e-mail you: I don't know. 471. Who is the last person to IM you: ? 472. Do you hate chain e-mails: Yes. 473. Are you a deep sleeper: kinda 474. Are you a good story teller: Sometimes..but not really. 475. What do you believe is your best quality: ? 479. Do you have your own credit card: ya 480. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money: start a wrestling promotion or buy TNA 487. Worst feeling in the world: pooping 488. Best feeling in the world: peeing 490. Last thing you downloaded: ? 491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life: Hahahahahaha..yeah. 492. What do you think people think of you: Who knows? 493. Are you a likeable person: sometimes 499. When are you moving: When my lease is up in September...only about a mile away. 500. What's your favorite phrase: HOLY FUCK I AM GLAD THIS THING IS OVER.   god that was a waste of time. my advice...don't do this thing.

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Carnival Top 25 10-29

(#) = previous   1. Ohio State 9-0 (1) 2. Boston College 8-0 (2) 3. LSU 7-1 (3) 4. Oregon 7-1 (4) 5. West Virginia 6-1 (6) 6. Oklahoma 7-1 (7) 7. Missouri 7-1 (9) 8. Arizona State 8-0 (13) 9. Kansas 8-0 (14) 10. Georgia 6-2 (15) 11. Virginia Tech 6-2 (8) 12. Alabama 6-2 (17) 13. Connecticut 7-1 (22) 14. South Florida 6-2 (5) 15. Auburn 6-3 (18) 16. Florida 5-3 (10) 17. Hawaii 8-0 (19) 18. Michigan 7-2 (20) 19. USC 6-2 (16) 20. Wake Forest 6-2 (NR) 21. Clemson 6-2 (NR) 22. Tennessee 5-3 (NR) 23. South Carolina 6-3 (11) 24. Kentucky 6-3 (12) 25. Purdue 7-2 (NR)   others - Boise State 7-1 (NR), Virgina 7-2 (21), California 5-3 (25), Vanderbilt 5-3 (NR), Arkansas 5-3 (NR)

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Me

Well here is the intro to boredum.   Real Name: Ethan Petrashek (it's weird i know)   I work at Alltel, providing Technical Support for DSL.   I live in Lincoln, Nebraska, but grew up in Table Rock, Nebraska. Population 300.   I will update more, with pics of my life, when i'm not at work.

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Carnival's Best of 2004 Mixtape

Click Here for comments and downloads.   Quick List   Track/Artist/Song Title/Album Title   01 - Skatterman & Snug Brim - "Say Whatcha Say" - Urban Legendz - 02 - Psychopathic Rydas - "Murder Fo Hire" - Check Your Shit In Bitch - 03 - D-12 - "40oz" - D-12 World - 04 - Cam'ron - "Get 'Em Girls" - Purple Haze - 05 - Eminem - "Crazy In Love" - Encore - 06 - Blaze Ya Dead Homie featuring Anybody Killa - "Stick Ya Hands Up" - Colton Grundy - 07 - Marz - "Preditor & Prey" - TGZ Nation Mixtape - 08 - Twiztid - "Wrong With Me(Remix)" - Cryptic Collection Volume 3 - 09 - Insane Clown Posse - "Walk Into The Darkness" - The Wraith : Hell's Pit - 10 - Project: Deadman - "No Rest For The Wicked" - Self Inflicted - 11 - Blaze Ya Dead Homie - "The Touch Of Death" - Colton Grundy - 12 - Insane Clown Posse - "Burning Up" - The Wraith : Hell's Pit - 13 - Kanye West - "Jesus Walks" - College Dropout - 14 - A Perfect Circle - "Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm Of The War Drums" - Emotive - 15 - Korn - "Another Brick In The Wall" - Greatest Hits Volume 1 - 16 - Monoxide - "Change" - Chainsmoker - 17 - Eminem - "Like Toy Soldiers" - Encore - 18 - D-12 - "How Come" - D-12 World - 19 - Skatterman & Snug Brim - "Heart & Soul" - Urban Legendz -   Honorable Mentions   HM - Alter Bridge - "Metalingus" - One Day Remains - HM - Atmosphere - "The Snare" - Unreleased & B-Sides Volume 1 - HM - Eminem - "Mosh" - Encore - HM - Kelly Clarkson - "Because Of You" - Breakaway - HM - Project: Deadman - "Dead Man Walking" - Self Inflicted - HM - Psychopathic Rydas - "Time 2 Ride" - Check Your Shit In Bitch - HM - Twiztid featuring Anybody Killa - "Listen" - Cryptic Collection Volume 3 - HM - Zug Izland - "Everything" - 3:33 -

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Carnival Top 25 09-23

(#) = previous   1. West Virginia 4-0 (1) 2. LSU 4-0 (3) 3. Florida 4-0 (2) 4. USC 3-0 (4) 5. Oklahoma 4-0 (5) 6. Ohio State 4-0 (6) 7. California 4-0 (7) 8. Rutgers 3-0 (8) 9. Boston College 4-0 (9) 10. Virginia Tech 3-1 (10) 11. Texas 4-0 (11) 12. Missouri 4-0 (13) 13. South Florida 3-0 (17) 14. Hawaii 4-0 (14) 15. Wisconsin 4-0 (12) 16. South Carolina 3-1 (16) 17. Tennessee 2-2 (19) 18. Oregon 4-0 (20) 19. Kentucky 4-0 (22) 20. Georgia 3-1 (NR) 21. Clemson 4-0 (NR) 22. Cincinnati 4-0 (NR) 23. Nebraska 3-1 (18) 24. Arizona State 4-0 (NR) 25. Kansas 4-0 (NR)   others - Michigan 2-2 (NR), Penn State 3-1 (15), Miami 3-1 (NR), Alabama 3-1 (24), Michigan State 4-0 (NR)

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Carnival Top 25 01-09

(#) = previously   1. Florida 13-1 (2) 2. Ohio State 12-1 (1) 3. LSU 11-2 (5) 4. Boise St. 13-0 (7) 5. Louisville 12-1 (4) 6. USC 11-2 (10) 7. Auburn 11-2 (6) 8. Wisconsin 12-1 (12) 9. Michigan 11-2 (3) 10. Oklahoma 11-3 (8) 11. West Virginia 10-2 (13) 12. Rutgers 11-2 (14) 13. California 9-3 (16) 14. Arkansas 10-4 (9) 15. BYU 11-2 (21) 16. Texas 10-3 (20) 17. Notre Dame 10-3 (11) 18. Wake Forest 10-3 (18) 19. Tennessee 9-4 (15) 20. Georgia 8-4 (22) 21. Virginia Tech 10-3 (17) 22. TCU 11-2 (24) 23. Penn St. 9-4 (NR) 24. Oregon St 10-4 (25) 25. Hawaii 11-3 (NR)   others - Texas A&M, Nebraska, Maryland, Boston College, Kentucky

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Carnival Top 25 9-07

(#) = last week   1. Georgia 2-0 (1) 2. Missouri 2-0 (2) 3. USC 1-0 (3) 4. Florida 2-0 (4) 5. Oklahoma 2-0 (5) 6. LSU 1-0 (6) 7. Kansas 2-0 (10) 8. Auburn 2-0 (9) 9. Ohio State 2-0 (7) 10. Texas Tech 2-0 (12) 11. Wisconsin 2-0 (13) 12. Wake Forest 2-0 (11) 13. Illinois 1-1 (14) 14. Texas 2-0 (16) 15. Oregon 2-0 (18) 16. Alabama 2-0 (17) 17. Arizona State 2-0 (20) 18. East Carolina 2-0 (NR) 19. South Florida 2-0 (15) 20. Clemson 1-1 (22) 21. Utah 2-0 (23) 22. West Virginia 1-1 (8) 23. UCLA 1-0 (25) 24. BYU 2-0 (19) 25. California 2-0 (NR)     others - Boise State 1-0 (NR), TCU 2-0 (NR), Penn St 2-0 (NR), Miami 1-1 (NR), Tennessee 0-1 (NR)

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All Torn Up

I love certain people on this board.   Especially the ones who choose to bash me however they can. Myself and Desperate Housewife had our little problems, but she has proven without a shadow of a doubt, that she is utterly senseless. So I have no problem with her. Her insanity has been witnessed by many, I'm not alone in this case.   MikeSC and I had quite the feud for a while. But in the end, it was all forgotten and i have no hard feelings for him. In fact I respect him more. I'm not talking about his CE rants I've heard so much about. Just wrestling discussion.   But there is another person who can't stand the fact that I don't go along with the smark flock. This person likes to make references to me every chance he gets. But this person refuses to back themselves up. I guess they just don't want to look stupid. They probably just want to keep up their "High and Mighty" image. This person really must think about me a lot. I must be on his mind many times a day. Judging from what I've read, this obsession just eats him alive.   Let's get this straight. I don't think that I'm always right or that I'm above anyone here. (he does) So I can admit that I think the person is generally smart, and has a very vast knowledge of wrestling in general. But this person is so High and Mighty they refuse to consider any other opinions or views. They approach everything with a closed mind and tells others to open their minds. I have yet to see this person admit to being wrong, misinformed, or even possibly incorrect. This person is here for one reason, to stroke his own ego. He must not have much of a life outside the internet, if he does and acts like this in real life, I would be amazed if his mother even loves him.   To this person who seems to be all torn up over little old me. Open your mind and try to drop the god complex. You seem like you could have an intelligent conversation, so try it some time. Quit being such a hypocrite.   And just to prove you wrong about this current issue that upsets you so. I could be wrong. Hell there is a 50/50 chance that I am. I'm just not one to jump to conclusions nor am I one to have my opinions told to me. I don't live my life according to a wrestling tabloid. Whatever the sheets say is not gospel, maybe you should open your eyes and stop having your views fed to you by meltzer.   If you have such a problem with me, why can't you take some of your own advice and take it to the PMs?

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hmmm

ok the categories don't work like i thought they would. oh well. i will be fucking up on this thing for awhile i'm sure.

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The bombshell

So I think it's officially over with her. Here is the arguement, check it out, Her stuff is in quotes. This was over the myspace email. ironicly the website that she met her buddies on that broke us up. This all started last night when she tried to chew me out for reading her myspace messages right in front of her friends.     Well you attacked me in front of your friend. Which you did for 1 of 2 reasons. 1. You have no tact and say the first thing that comes to your head without thinking, which I haven't ever witnessed before, so i don't think that was it. Or 2. You wanted to complain about something in front of her to make yourself look cool and make me look like the bad guy to support your stories about bad your life is thanks to me. Which is totally childish and moronic.   Now I understand why you said it. And I agree I shouldn't read messages before you cuz then you can't see if you got new ones. I totally get that and agree. But you have to understand that I HAVE to do that. The reason being, you delete everything the second after you do it, so I can't see it. Which is shady and scandelous and fucked up.   So basically you tried to humiliate me and look cool in front of your friend and your acting like I had no right to be upset? Your lucky I left before I exploded on you and caused a huge scene. I saved you getting yelling at and having to deal with reality and I saved jessi the akwardness of having to witness it. I think leaving is the only thing I could have done after what you pulled.     well that just proves your a scandelous person. good for you. I check it every time I do because I don't trust you. And you've given me every reason not to. I trusted you more the day I met you than I do now. And using MY computer to fucking hit on other guys is beyond fucked up, guys from Lincoln no less. Don't even try to lie, I've seen enough.   You have been pushed and stretched?   HAHAHA   Quit feeling sorry for yourself. Everything you are feeling and everything that is happening to you is a direct result from your actions. I don't feel sorry for you at all. You have put ME through so much shit in the last few months and I have given you nothing but space and didn't bitch about shit. you said you don't wanna talk about stuff and I don't say anything. And you still treat me like shit. I've done nothing but try to NOT control you and let you do whatever, and you just keep fucking making it worse and keep stabbing me in the back.   Now you are just using me for my computer and to pay rent. What a great person you have become.     Oh so you know exactly what I'm talking about huh? So you know I was reading all your AIM conversations for a couple weeks then....oh thats right you didn't. I stopped reading that after I became completely disgusted with what was going on. The only thing I think that isn't wrong is hang out with your friends, and when your with them I don't worry about what your doing at all. At first I did, then I got over it, then I trusted you, then you kept pushing me away, so I stopped trusting you as much, then I saw all the shit I saw(pics you've taken, that you thought were gone forever after deleting them) and I completely stopped trusting you. But I still didn't worry about what you were doing because I simply didn't care.   So saying you don't want to be with anyone else is bullshit. You may not want a serious relationship with someone, but you want other guys, thats a fact, don't even try to lie about it. You'd be with another guy weeks after we broke up, I just know it. And yes I do think I know everything, I mean I only told you exactly what you were gonna do since day 1. 4 months later you realize I was right. I knew what you were thinking before you even thought it.   The ONLY thing that changed is you. I've said it a million times, you've become less mature and more shady as time went on. i've never seen anything like it. People usually grow up, not down. Just like everyone has told me, you won't see what you've done until it's over, and it really appears that you think you've done nothing wrong. You've done nothing but hurt our relationship for the past 4 months. I've been way too nice in dealing with this crap and put up with you using me for way too long. So if you think you are "done with it" then I suggest you get on the phone to Scott Steen(landlord). You have wasted enough of my time with your "confusion" and excuses.     What was so hurtful? All I did was call you out on your lies.   I had to go to extreme lengths, not to "get in your life" cuz for one thing I should already know what is going on with you, and mostly it was to really see what kind of person you've become. It was sad to say the least.   Talk about it? Are you kidding me? seriously you can't be that stupid. Remember the whole...."I don't wanna talk about it" you only told me that like 20 times.   And do you seriously think I can forgive you for the last 4 months of my life being hell? I knew we wouldn't be friends after this because all the hurt you've caused me. I wasn't going to ever let myself forget that.   You think I "push you down" cuz you think you shouldn't have explain things or answer to me, because your not thinking of the relationship and you haven't been for months. You are only thinking about you. I've been thinking about us when I should have just realized there is no getting through to you. If you didn't want me questioning things all the time, then maybe you shouldn't do fucked up shit.   I said nothing hurtful, I only spoke the truth. If it's insulting, then maybe the shoe fits. I never thought I could finally change so much for someone and commit myself to that person and all I get in return is screwed over. And you seriously think that you are getting a raw deal here, that is just insane to me. One day you will really see what you've done.     I blame myself for very little of the problem. I blame myself for getting on your case right away. That was wrong, I should have waited until I had a big reason instead of just a hunch, even though I was probably right about the hunch. And I also blame myself for signing a lease with you. I actually trusted you when you said that you would love me for a year longer. I shouldn't have.   I only do feel sorry for myself, because I'm only thinking of me now, just like you have been for the past 4 months. It's all your fault we signed the lease, I trusted you, it's all your fault that we have to move again. I would feel bad that you have to move out, but it is your fault.   Actually I do feel bad for you, I feel bad about the fact that you threw away such a good thing and that you will be missing out big time. As the months go on, you'll realize that.   I like how I'm calling you out on your lies and you don't have anything to say but "i don't give a shit". Thats great. Maybe I'm proving to you finally that you've become everything you hate, lying to me, being hypocrite, and who knows maybe cheating, at least wanting to cheat.   Everything happens for a reason my ass. Does God have a plan for you to lie to me? Is that what your saying? Was God's plan for you to hurt to me, at the expense of turning you from someone I loved and admired into someone who would stab me in the back? Bullshit. It's all random events, and maybe someday you'll get fucked over as much as I have and you'll see it my way.   I'm sorry you feel like trash, but the truth hurts and I've dealt with it for months now. You have nobody to blame but yourself for feeling like garbage. This is all a direct result of your actions. It does NOT bring me great joy to make you feel like this, I didn't expect you'd feel bad at all actually. I do still care for you, maybe in time I will forgive you for all of this and we can be cool, but I'll never forget it. What was that thing you said once "It's all about the Karma".....wow...how fucking ironic? damn.           well she didn't say anything back, cuz she pretty much got owned, so right now I'm upstairs on the comp, and she's downstairs watching tv. I wonder WTF is gonna happen tonight.

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Carnival Top 25 9-01

(#) = last week   1. Georgia 1-0 (1) 2. Missouri 1-0 (2) 3. USC 1-0 (3) 4. Florida 1-0 (4) 5. Oklahoma 1-0 (5) 6. LSU 1-0 (6) 7. Ohio State 1-0 (7) 8. West Virginia 1-0 (9) 9. Auburn 1-0 (10) 10. Kansas 1-0 (11) 11. Wake Forest 1-0 (14) 12. Texas Tech 1-0 (15) 13. Wisconsin 1-0 (17) 14. Illinois 0-1 (12) 15. South Florida 1-0(18) 16. Texas 1-0 (19) 17. Alabama 1-0 (24) 18. Oregon 1-0 (21) 19. BYU 1-0 (20) 20. Arizona State 1-0 (18) 21. South Carolina 1-0 (NR) 22. Clemson 0-1 (14) 23. Utah 1-0 (NR) 24. Connecticut 1-0 (25) 25. UCLA 1-0 (NR)     others - Boise State 1-0 (NR), California 1-0 (NR), TCU 1-0 (NR), Miami 1-0 (NR), Tennessee 0-1 (12)

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R.I.P. Eddie

Just want to say I'm deeply saddend by the passing of Eddie Guerrero.   My thoughts and prayers go out for him and his family. He was one of the all time greats. The wrestling business lost one of it's best performers. I pray that he is in a better place, and I hope his legacy lives on forever.

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don't get it

Now that we have officially broken up, Kari is completely depressed and crying at random times. I don't understand, she is the one that stopped loving me and she is the one who wanted this. Why is she more upset than me? I wouldn't say I'm totally fine with. I mean it sucks hardcore, probably the worst thing thats happened to me in my life. But I'm just so angry over the whole thing that I'm not extremly saddened by it. I'm sad about the whole situation, but when I think about it I just get so angry and feel so bitter about it. All the hurt she caused me turned into hating and I was getting more and more enraged everyday.   I don't want this to happen and I wish it never did. But I don't think there is any going back to the way it was. She has ruined that. I'll never trust her as a girlfriend again. She pounded it in my head for 2 years that she hated people who were shady and sneaky, then thats what she became. My opinion of her has changed greatly. I honestly lost a lot of respect for her, I always thought she was good person, better than me. She's still a generally good person, but she's changed so much, and the thing is she's changed into everything her and I used to hate.   I really think she's feeling guilty about she's done and what she has caused us to become. I think she realizes she has become something different and she's upset about it.

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Final Carnival Top 25 01-07

(#) = previous     1. LSU 12-2 (1) 2. Georgia 11-2 (2) 3. Missouri 12-2 (6) 4. Kansas 12-1 (7) 5. West Virginia 11-2 (9) 6. Ohio State 11-2 (3) 7. USC 11-2 (10) 8. Virginia Tech 11-3 (4) 9. Oklahoma 11-3 (5) 10. Boston College 11-3 (14) 11. Auburn 9-4 (17) 12. Florida 9-4 (8) 13. Tennessee 10-4 (16) 14. Hawaii 12-1 (11) 15. Cincinnati 10-3 (13) 16. Texas 10-3 (25) 17. Clemson 9-4 (15) 18. Arizona State 10-3 (12) 19. Texas Tech 9-4 (NR) 20. Virgina 9-4 (19) 21. BYU 11-2 (NR) 22. Illinois 9-4 (18) 23. Arkansas 8-5 (22) 24. Miss St 8-5 (NR) 25. Kentucky 8-5 (NR)       others - Wake Forest 9-4 (NR), Wisconsin 9-4 (24), Michigan 9-4 (NR), Oregon State 9-4 (NR), Oregon 9-4 (NR)

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Colorado again.

I forgot I had this thing.   I went to Colorado again, this time I went to see Kari's brother who recently moved to Silverthorne after to we went to Estes and he realized how much he loved the mountains. He got a job as a mechanic at a chevy dealership, the same job he had before, but this time for like double the pay. He lives in a nice apartment above a mexican grocery store, which I think is a front, cuz there were mexicans in and out of that thing non-stop! I think they are selling a little more than tortillas.   So Friday night we went to Breckinridge and got drunk, it was pretty fun. My favorite part of the night was a rap show we went to for like 5 bucks. They were local rappers from I'm assuming Denver and they sucked, but it was still cool.   That area of the mountains has a free bus system that runs at night, so you can get as drunk as you want and just take the bus home. Pretty good idea.   Saturday I watched Nebraska get killed then we went to Vail which was ok, not much to see really. Saturday night we went out to Frisco on the bus, but it didn't have to nightlife that Breckinridge did, so we went home.   Drove forever back to Nebraska, and I'm stuck at work again, I have to work 9 straight days thanks to another schedule swap. So this week and next week are gonna suck.

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myspace

well Myspace has given me more evidence of what a horrible person my girlfriend has become. I was reading her messages which I haven't done in a few weeks, and which she does to mine probably everyday. And she told some guy that he was fine. And she jumped my case months ago for doing the same, so I stopped doing that. Now she is doing it, what a hypocrite. Well it's not like I haven't seen her do it on AIM either. I will give her the benefit of the doubt this time. The guy pulled a classic emo move and said how ugly he was, and she just said "Nah, your fine." so it could have just meant he wasn't ugly. She then pulled the same classic emo move on him, but to no avail. no compliment, he did ask her what she was doing this weekend. Little does he know she is fucking her white trash metal loser friends so she won't have time to fuck him. Only kidding, but not really.   I will update with the complete story of what is going on and ask for some advice later.

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Preseason Carnival Top 25 7-15

(#) = last year's final ranking     1. Georgia (2) 2. Missouri (3) 3. USC (7) 4. Florida (12) 5. Oklahoma (9) 6. LSU (1) 7. Ohio State (6) 8. Virginia Tech (8) 9. West Virginia (5) 10. Auburn (11) 11. Kansas (4) 12. Tennessee (13) 13. Illinois (22) 14. Clemson (17) 15. Wake Forest (NR) 16. Texas Tech (19) 17. Wisconsin (NR) 18. South Florida (NR) 19. Texas (16) 20. BYU (21) 21. Oregon (NR) 22. Arizona State (18) 23. South Carolina (NR) 24. Alabama (NR) 25. Connecticut (NR)     others - Boise State (NR), Mississippi State (24), California (NR), TCU (NR), Miami (NR)     Conference Champions: ACC - Virginia Tech   ACC Atlantic 1. Clemson 2. Wake Forest ACC Coastal 1. Virginia Tech 2. Miami   Big East - West Virginia Big East 1. West Virginia 2. South Florida 3. Connecticut 4. Cincinnati   Big Ten - Ohio State Big Ten 1. Ohio State 2. Illinois 3. Wisconsin 4. Purdue Big 12 - Missouri Big 12 North 1. Missouri 2. Kansas Big 12 South 1. Oklahoma 2. Texas Tech   Conference USA - Tulsa Conference USA East 1. Central Florida 2. Southern Mississippi Conference USA West 1. Tulsa 2. Houston   Pac 10 - USC Pac 10 1. USC 2. Oregon 3. Arizona State 4. California   SEC - Georgia SEC East 1. Georgia 2. Florida SEC West 1. LSU 2. Auburn   WAC - Boise State WAC 1. Boise State 2. Fresno State 3. Nevada 4. Hawaii   Mountain West - BYU Mountain West 1. BYU 2. TCU 3. Utah 4. Air Force   MAC - Ball State MAC East 1. Miami OH 2. Bowling Green MAC West 1. Ball State 2. Central Michigan   Sun Belt - Florida Atlantic Sun Belt 1. Florida Atlantic 2. Troy 3. Arkansas State 4. Middle Tennessee

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Carnival Top 25 11-11

(#) = previous   1. LSU 9-1 (2) 2. Oregon 8-1 (3) 3. West Virginia 8-1 (4) 4. Oklahoma 9-1 (5) 5. Missouri 9-1 (6) 6. Kansas 10-0 (7) 7. Arizona State 9-1 (8) 8. Georgia 8-2 (10) 9. Ohio State 10-1 (1) 10. Virginia Tech 8-2 (12) 11. Florida 8-3 (14) 12. Clemson 8-2 (18) 13. USC 8-2 (17) 14. Cincinnati 8-2 (25) 15. Hawaii 9-0 (15) 16. Tennessee 7-3 (20) 17. Kentucky 7-3 (21) 18. Boston College 8-2 (9) 19. Boise State 9-1 (24) 20. Virgina 9-2 (25) 21. Connecticut 8-2 (11) 22. Auburn 7-4 (13) 23. Texas 9-2 (NR) 24. Illinois 9-3 (NR) 25. Penn State 9-3 (NR)       others - South Florida 7-3 (NR), Miss State 6-4 (NR), Wisconsin 8-3 (NR), Michigan 8-3 (16), Rutgers 6-4 (NR)

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