don't get it
Now that we have officially broken up, Kari is completely depressed and crying at random times. I don't understand, she is the one that stopped loving me and she is the one who wanted this. Why is she more upset than me? I wouldn't say I'm totally fine with. I mean it sucks hardcore, probably the worst thing thats happened to me in my life. But I'm just so angry over the whole thing that I'm not extremly saddened by it. I'm sad about the whole situation, but when I think about it I just get so angry and feel so bitter about it. All the hurt she caused me turned into hating and I was getting more and more enraged everyday.
I don't want this to happen and I wish it never did. But I don't think there is any going back to the way it was. She has ruined that. I'll never trust her as a girlfriend again. She pounded it in my head for 2 years that she hated people who were shady and sneaky, then thats what she became. My opinion of her has changed greatly. I honestly lost a lot of respect for her, I always thought she was good person, better than me. She's still a generally good person, but she's changed so much, and the thing is she's changed into everything her and I used to hate.
I really think she's feeling guilty about she's done and what she has caused us to become. I think she realizes she has become something different and she's upset about it.