DynamiteChris

Oh sorry, the way you wrote the remark in the other thread it sounded like you had already done the dividing by 3 bit.

First, "our" is her and her cousin/niece (some relative)who have an apartment. I don't directly know what this means and I can't just ask if her bf will be there but I assume he will... Hawk34, don't think I missed your snide remark about me there. I think this is an awkard situation. Well, it would be for me anyway as I have a hard time trying to figure out how to act in front of a girl who has a boyfriend. The interesting thing is that she invited you despite having a boyfriend. Maybe she's testing you to check out your manliness or just to see if you two will be just friends. Or she's setting you up with her cousin/niece(some relative). Perhaps you could have a 3some. Make sure before you go to get checked for any diseases you might have. 18(3) =54 women = possible sexually transmitted disease. Don't think of doing anything until you get checked out because that wouldn't be fair to your partner.

I have always been shy. After I first started talking, I stopped for over a whole year with perhaps the exception of the word "juice" I believe. That scared my mother but I did start talking again. Sometimes I wonder if weight training is something I do for the women. Subconciously or something because I always feel I have to be beyond perfect when I approach a woman and that I would say is both good and bad. Maybe I'll get into my thoughts on that in a future post. Though I suppose when you think about it you can say everything man does is for women and it would make sense. Interestingly, weight training is something that's been engrained into me since I was a kid. We're talking extremely young here. I always wanted to be a strong, muscular man like He-Man. You could say that due to my upbringing of being around physical labour and everybody commenting on strength but I think it was something that was just in my blood. I used to look at the Sears catalogues when I was kid and just dream about the weight benches and weights.

I'm not putting much effort in this post but since I see quite a few people read my last blog entry so I thought I may as well write some more stuff. I feel lonely right now. Sometimes this happens. It's hard to go through life without ever having touched (outside of a strip club), danced, hugged, held hands or kissed a woman and it really eats away at me.. For a long time, I half convinced myself that I didn't need a woman and enjoyed my freedom. Truth be known, I did but there was also another part of me that hungered for a woman and whenever I saw a woman behind a counter at a store, a longing for love and touch would enter my heart. That would remind me I was lying to myself. A lot of it is my fault. I have very high standards before I can love myself. Sometimes I am scared of doing things in my life that actually make me happy. I have social anxiety. My standards are in reality very high for the opposite sex. However, I would say some of my lonliness is not quite my fault because I didn't really understand certain concepts of the mating game like I'm starting to learn now. I talk about it on the board here to release my frustration and I do get a laugh along with everyone else (some advice too!) out of reading my own misadventures but at the same time it truly does hurt. Times are different now though. I do realise that some females find me attractive and that helps a lot as before I was never sure what percent of girls would give me a chance at all before. But on the other side of the coin, it's now extremely painful not to be able to capatalize on times when I know a girl is liking me. I despise myself for that. But it's time to get over all this. It's time time to improve myself and go get every girl I possibly can. I know I can do it and I will do it. That day will come. It's time to end the lonliness. It's time to end the hurt and it's time to end this emo?? post. Would this be classified as an emo post?

I'm glad you had a fun time. How did the flirting start? What are you going to do about the boyfriend? WOuld you feel bad if you helped to break up their relationship?

Eh, I just feel like typing something. So here we go, just some random occurances in the life of WP. Yesterday was a fun day. I had a doctor's appointment in the morning to get wax out of my ears. My ears have been constantly ringing for months and finally when I had to go to outpatients one evening (for something else) the problem was figured out. First time I went to the doctors though they couldn't do anything because the wax was just too hard and packed in there. So for a week or so, I had to put mineral water inside my ears to soften things up. Back to yesterday again -- Since I don't have a car I went in by foot. From home to about the mall which would have to be 7 miles anyway. It was a tough all out run and even though I don't sweat as nearly much as other people do, I had managed to build enough sweat to make me uncomfortable in my clothes. I was impressed with my cardio and endurance for the day as I seemed to be really doing well. However, I have to come to grips with reality in that running is just too hard on the joints, ankles and all that. Well, I arrive 30 minutes early thanks to the run only to discover that my appointment had been rescheduled for the next day. Although the message had been taken, I was not informed of it so I didn't know. Well, that to say the least was kind of dissapointing. However, I was due for a gym session so off I went. There's a shortcut from the mall to the University where you walk on a dirt road (only for walkers though, no drivers) so I took that. Noted the waste of sprinklers as I passed the soccor field and than it happened. You always meet someone walking on the road going from the University to the Mall or Sobeys and this time was no different. There was this attractive girl walking the other way. She was dressed provacatively and in fact didn't even have a bra strap visible on her left side!! And she gave me a smile!! And I smiled back and said hi!! I don't know if she saw the smile but she probably did hear the hi. Nontheless, I think it was obvious that I was on cloud 9 after that. Not only because of the smile but since I was proud of mysef for being a man and not only smiling back but saying hi. Now, after that adventure I talked to an older gentleman running the track who was was wondering what time it was. I gave him an estimate and off I went drinking my 1 litre of orange juice I had bought at the Dollar Store. I managed to finish off before I got there and gulped down a bunch of water once I got into the University. The gym was packed once I arrived there. All the students had returned from summer vacation and it was crowded as anything. I said "Hi" to my aunt's boyfriend and went to work. I worked on shoulders, abs, legs and traps before I called it a day. No real story from the gym this time which was unfortunate for people reading this I guess. They should've been thinking about you. So now it was time to go home. It was long walk home and my ankles, hips, feet and joints were feeling it. In fact, my bottoms of my pinky toes were even having their calluses (tough piece of skin that forms after repititive use) ripped off. But I made'er eventually and couldn't be more happy to get something to drink and eat. I was pretty tired and in total I think I ended up falling asleep about 3 or 4 different times that day. Next day, it was time for a doctor's appointment again. Met some people I knew while waiting so that was cool. Finally got in there to get the wax removal done. The doctor I know somewhat and he's a good guy so everything went okay. It was a new experience so I wasn't too sure on how everything would be done. He took this thing that looked like a need and repeatably flushed water into my ear as well as taking all the goey, yucky stuff out. Some of it came out in chunks and some of it in liquid form. It almost looked like runny manure in liquid form. Anyway, you hold this container next to your ear so all the stuff doesn't get on you. And that worked for the most part but I did manage to get some stuff down my chest and stomach. The process actually hurt a good deal and as of now my ears are still hurting from the pain that was inflicted by the needle like thing. A little bit of blood occured as well but nothing even close to serious. But at least, the ringing in my ears has stopped. Now, hopefully the pain in the ears will stop soon as well. It's not that I can't take the pain or anything but it's just that it worries me a tiny/little bit. The rest of the day I spent on TSM. The end. I don't proofread these things so if stuff doens't make sense than that is why.

I missed ya bud. And I promise not to make any jokes about that "Since you were gone I can breathe for the very first time song." If it makes you happier overall than it's good I guess. Don't regret over the past. Just make the best of the present Good for you. I think you can overcome contempt with a stellar work ethic however. Sucks. Once again, that sucks. Could you have put up more of a fight to get him in? I wish you the best. ----------------- I start school in just 12 days. My first collegiate year was rather lackluster but with a newfound motivation and drive, I have high expectations for this upcoming semester. I've said this many times and it holds true, for any aspiring students not sure about their direction, don't waste time and money on some big school and having your (or parents) pocketbooks gutted. There are a number of community colleges that offer the exact same basic introductory education that you'll receive from any 4 year program. Or do what I did...attend a regional branch. Most schools have regional campus and they are significantly cheaper and they offer identical education. LLiving at home and commuting might not seem attractive but when you examine the bills I got from Miami (OH) at Oxford and the Middletown regional branch, it was light and day. Attending regional branches doesn't limit your social life by any means. --- Man alive, you have high standards. Ideally, what type of person would you want your sister to marry? I can do the job if you want. Lol --- Can't wait.

Peter, we should talk about the Ghostbusters cartoon some day. That show was hilarious when they were hitting on all cylinders. Remember when they were all going around looking for a troll? and Ray comes up with the theory that instead of moving around and missing the person you're looking for (because they're moving around as well) you should stay still and eventually they will come to you? Egon than tells Ray it's the stupidest theory he's ever heard only to be of course proven wrong when Ray's elementary school teacher passes by. The time when Ray? and Egon were throwing a sterotypical cartoon bomb back and forth to each other where they're debating wether it's real or not is one of all time favourite TV moments. Boogieman episode WAS AWESOME. And that episode where Peter goes all out to save Slimer who got sucked into some kind of well; I don't remember what it was but it was really emotional.

Stay away from the alcohol. I don't really know what else to say. I know it's easier said than done but just do it before you do something you truly regret and become even more depressed.

Thanks bud. My Rocky IV tape is actually a little worn out at that spot because I used to rewind it so much just so I can watch it over and over again. I'm a conflict of emotions right now. Frustrated, happy, really optomistic, sad and very worried. One good thing as of late is that I am now feeling more confident than I ever have been in my life. Though in a way I hope that doesn't make me lose my anxiety fears since I find they actually keep you extremely alive inside especially when you try to confront said anxiety fears. I guess I'll have to start diving soon or something so I can get that alive feeling back.

Yeah, I'm depressed out of my mind. Moreso than usual. Don't feel like posting too much but I often suffer from depression and anything and everything is going wrong.

Am I one of the few people to hate the gimmick? That's good. He's a heel. There's a difference in being a heel to make people hate you and people not being able to stand you. For HTQ, it's the latter in regards to Booker's King gimmick. Correct. If I happen to catch anything with King Booker, I instantly skip it. Shouldn't the fact I said I hate the gimmick make it pretty obvious that it's not getting the right kind of reaction from me? I had assumed that. I was just hoping for something else. From what I've seen of your posts I don't understand why you're always so hard on Smackdown. They've been producing a lot of great wrestling this year. With charasmatic charactors to boot. The booking leaves something to be desired but hey; what else is new?

I'd put him close to 100%. The match quality score might be less than perfect because of the WWE style and lack of quality opponents. He deserves a perfect 75/75 in the other two categories, though. I never thought of how Randall would be if the WWE style didn't hold him back. I think it's safe to say he'd be the greatest worker in ROH. Without question. He'd also be the greatest heel ever in ROH by a long shot. I think he'd do well down there especially if he could somehow do double duty with the WWE and ROH.

Am I one of the few people to hate the gimmick? That's good. He's a heel.

I suffer from depression so I wish you the best. Soccor will not become big in America because of several factors. If the most exciting team sport in the world can't make it (hockey) than I don't see soccor making it. One part (well actually two parts confused me) of your entry there confused me at what you were trying to get at How's leaving school not a honourable thing to do? Do you feel ashamed of it or something? Do you take a lot of pride into going to school? Or do you just feel greed's getting the best of you at the moment and you don't thnk that's honourable? If you feel guilt about making more money (which I assume you don't) than give it to the Make a Wish Foundation.