Anybody else's year starting off shitty?

[Damaramu 0]

So we're only 12 days into the year and already I can tell it's not going to be my year.

So first of all I have the little things. My team doesn't win the National Championship. Yeah that sucks but life goes on.

Well then I am informed that I'm probably not going to even get to try out for the football team because of lack of experience. That sucks and it's bullshit. So I'm going to go and try out anyways. So now I'm upset over those two things.

Well now two big things hit me in the past week.

First of all my grandma is hospitalized. She is in extreme stomach pain and it finally goes away after a whole day and night of pain. Well she goes back for a check up today and finds out she has full blown diabetes and it is potentially life threatening. Well that sucks. I've never really lost anyone close to me and I don't know what I'd do without my grandma. She's always been there and I don't think I could take not having her there. I love her so much.

Then I find out my best friend has a few months to live. No not a human, man's best friend. My Beagle dog, Buster, also has full blown diabetes. I find out that his blood sugar has sky rocketed and it is causing him to develop a tumor in his liver. We can't treat it...he's to far gone. He's losing weight and only has a few months to live. All we can do is keep him happy and comfortable until as the vet puts it, a day comes where he's so skinny and weak we'll have to have him put down. Or he'll just die from it.

You don't understand how I am with animals. I usually care for my animals more than most humans. I love my dogs and this is my favorite dog. He's always there for me. He never judges me and he's always trusting and always loves me no matter what. He puts all of his faith into me to take care of him and now when it's crucial I can't save him. It sucks because he's not in any pain. I don't want him to be but he's going to be happy and bounding one day and then the next day he's not going to wake up. Or he's going to be laying around doing nothing and then be excited he's going on a car ride..just so I can take him to be killed.

God I can't stand it. I love that dog and I don't want to lose him...he trusts me and I've let him down.

 

Already my year is falling apart. I don't know what's next. I don't know what to do. I'm so afraid that I'm going to go into depression if I lose my grandma and my dog. I love them both so much and they've always loved me and they've always been there for me. Those that don't have pets probably don't understand how one person can love an animal so much but those that do understand me.

God this sucks.......what's next? I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop. Something else bad is going to happen I know it. Am I going next? Am I going to flunk out of school? I don't know...and it's driving me crazy.

 

Sorry I just had to lay it all out on the table.

[Guest Salacious Crumb]

My year is going ok so far. It's just a matter of if I should have my knees finally fixed or not. Unfortunately that would require multiple on both and one would still only be about 85% of what it used to be.

 

Edit: But when it rains it pours as they say. Shit seems to hit the fan at the same time. Maybe in a month or two things will improve.

[NYU 0]

Sorry about that Damaramu. I can relate. On New Years Day, we found out a family friend was being checked into the hospital for a brain tumor. It was depressing for a couple of days, but we were told by the woman's husband that the tumor was malignant, and she would be fine and ready for rehab. They took her to a physical rehabilition center, and we were finally assured that everything would be fine. Then, we found out two days ago from another friend that they brought her back to the hospital. Apparently, she has lung cancer and the cancer cells spread to her brain. It wasn't said directly, but it's practically a guarantee she'll die soon - which makes it all the more crushing because we thought a few days ago that she would be okay. It's depressing to think that she's only 40-something, has a husband, has 2 kids in their teens, and she has to go through this. To make matters worse, my mom is going through a mild case of denial and keeps hoping that they'll find they made a mistake. Sucks. The whole lung cancer thing makes me think back to my uncle dying of lung cancer a year-and-a-half ago, and scares the shit out of me since both my parents smoked cigarettes for years.

 

So yeah, you haven't been the only one starting off the year shitty. You can safely know that you have company right here.

[Damaramu 0]

Sorry about that Damaramu. I can relate. On New Years Day, we found out a family friend was being checked into the hospital for a brain tumor. It was depressing for a couple of days, but we were told by the woman's husband that the tumor was malignant, and she would be fine and ready for rehab. They took her to a physical rehabilition center, and we were finally assured that everything would be fine. Then, we found out two days ago from another friend that they brought her back to the hospital. Apparently, she has lung cancer and the cancer cells spread to her brain. It wasn't said directly, but it's practically a guarantee she'll die soon - which makes it all the more crushing because we thought a few days ago that she would be okay. It's depressing to think that she's only 40-something, has a husband, has 2 kids in their teens, and she has to go through this. To make matters worse, my mom is going through a mild case of denial and keeps hoping that they'll find they made a mistake. Sucks. The whole lung cancer thing makes me think back to my uncle dying of lung cancer a year-and-a-half ago, and scares the shit out of me since both my parents smoked cigarettes for years.

 

So yeah, you haven't been the only one starting off the year shitty. You can safely know that you have company right here.

Yeah my grandma may be curable which I am praying it is.

However my dog(whom i love very much) is gone. I have 5 other dogs but this is my favorite. His blood sugar is supposed to be at a 112...it's at 400. I started blaming myself but the vet said that it was hereditary and there was nothing that could've been done to prevent it. I just have to feed him twice a day and walk him twice a day to give him enough energy to live out his final days. I keep thinking that maybe he'll eat enough and get enough exercise to become healthy enough to beat it...but my mom(who loves the animals more than me) says that all we can do is make his remaining days the happiest of his life. Which drives me even more crazy b/c he's going to think everything is great and then boom.....be dead one day.

God I hate this.......

[godthedog 0]

my christmas break absolutely sucked. but when i got back to school my official GRE scores were waiting for me and were really promising. so it's been a mixed bag for me.

[Guest SP-1]

I'm sorry to hear about all of that, Dama. Like you, I love my animals deeply and have hated losing any of them.

 

Losing loved ones isn't easy either. I went through something similar with my own grandmother and lost my father when I was younger.

 

if you need an ear that you never have to attach a face to, feel free to PM or IM me. I'll pray for you, for whatever it's worth.

[Damaramu 0]

I'm sorry to hear about all of that, Dama. Like you, I love my animals deeply and have hated losing any of them.

 

Losing loved ones isn't easy either. I went through something similar with my own grandmother and lost my father when I was younger.

 

if you need an ear that you never have to attach a face to, feel free to PM or IM me. I'll pray for you, for whatever it's worth.

Thank you Spider. That means a lot to me.

[Guest The Winter Of My Discontent]

So Then I find out my best friend has a few months to live. No not a human, man's best friend.

 

You don't understand how I am with animals. I usually care for my animals more than most humans. I love my dogs and this is my favorite dog. He's always there for me. He never judges me and he's always trusting and always loves me no matter what. He puts all of his faith into me to take care of him and now when it's crucial I can't save him. It sucks because he's not in any pain. I don't want him to be but he's going to be happy and bounding one day and then the next day he's not going to wake up. Or he's going to be laying around doing nothing and then be excited he's going on a car ride..just so I can take him to be killed.

God I can't stand it. I love that dog and I don't want to lose him...he trusts me and I've let him down.

Dude.....man.....dude.....

 

*bites lip*

 

Go out and find a mate. Its not like you're some hideous freak...so quit acting like one. Don't set the basis for your life around an animal...humans have so much more to offer. Your dog is your best friend? C'mon man....thats foolish.

 

Humans > Animals

 

For more reason that one.

[Ced 0]

Not too bad of a start this year, aside from the calcium deposits discovered in my testicles and the recommendation to have them ultrasounded regularly to check for possible tumors. The potential for cancer makes one very paranoid.

 

Speaking of paranoia, my workplace has started this year right with an anthrax scare, which turned out to be residue from glue that WE ALWAYS USE...idiots.

[Your Paragon of Virtue 0]

So Then I find out my best friend has a few months to live. No not a human, man's best friend. 

 

You don't understand how I am with animals. I usually care for my animals more than most humans. I love my dogs and this is my favorite dog. He's always there for me. He never judges me and he's always trusting and always loves me no matter what. He puts all of his faith into me to take care of him and now when it's crucial I can't save him. It sucks because he's not in any pain. I don't want him to be but he's going to be happy and bounding one day and then the next day he's not going to wake up. Or he's going to be laying around doing nothing and then be excited he's going on a car ride..just so I can take him to be killed.

God I can't stand it. I love that dog and I don't want to lose him...he trusts me and I've let him down.

Dude.....man.....dude.....

 

*bites lip*

 

Go out and find a mate. Its not like you're some hideous freak...so quit acting like one. Don't set the basis for your life around an animal...humans have so much more to offer. Your dog is your best friend? C'mon man....thats foolish.

 

Humans > Animals

 

For more reason that one.

Hey now, I understand what he's saying. If I lost my dog due to something like that, odds are I'd be depressed for a few days as well. It's nothing to feel sorry about. It's a companion. I'm sure he has human friends, he just happens to have a dog as well.

[Damaramu 0]

So Then I find out my best friend has a few months to live. No not a human, man's best friend. 

 

You don't understand how I am with animals. I usually care for my animals more than most humans. I love my dogs and this is my favorite dog. He's always there for me. He never judges me and he's always trusting and always loves me no matter what. He puts all of his faith into me to take care of him and now when it's crucial I can't save him. It sucks because he's not in any pain. I don't want him to be but he's going to be happy and bounding one day and then the next day he's not going to wake up. Or he's going to be laying around doing nothing and then be excited he's going on a car ride..just so I can take him to be killed.

God I can't stand it. I love that dog and I don't want to lose him...he trusts me and I've let him down.

Dude.....man.....dude.....

 

*bites lip*

 

Go out and find a mate. Its not like you're some hideous freak...so quit acting like one. Don't set the basis for your life around an animal...humans have so much more to offer. Your dog is your best friend? C'mon man....thats foolish.

 

Humans > Animals

 

For more reason that one.

I didn't expect anything from you. And I didn't get anything. I'm shocked.

Of course I have a human best friend.

Haven't you ever heard that a dog is man's best friend? That's where I got that phrase from.

Whereas my human best friend can act like a jackass my dog will never turn on me.

God don't turn this thread into what you turn all of my other threads into...I'm really not in the mood.

If you don't have anything relavent to add then keep your god damn mouth shut. This will not turn into another pissing match like you do to me everytime I post. Back the fuck up.

[HarleyQuinn 0]

My year's been solid thus far though my grandfather has also been diagnosed with a slight tumor but the doctors are saying that he should be fine after surgery and also have to agree with the "when it rains, it pours statement" as my grandmother had a stroke last year but has managed to recover. Same as you Dama, haven't lost anyone close(Cept a great uncle who I never really knew) but it sucks to know that as your uncles, aunts and grandparents grow older it's like you're waiting for that one moment to occur where the snowball starts and continues building momentum.

 

Sorry, just not used to having to deal with the thought of family members having illnesses and such. Hope all goes well Dama, my prayers for you and yours

[Damaramu 0]

My year's been solid thus far though my grandfather has also been diagnosed with a slight tumor but the doctors are saying that he should be fine after surgery and also have to agree with the "when it rains, it pours statement" as my grandmother had a stroke last year but has managed to recover. Same as you Dama, haven't lost anyone close(Cept a great uncle who I never really knew) but it sucks to know that as your uncles, aunts and grandparents grow older it's like you're waiting for that one moment to occur where the snowball stops and continues building momentum.

 

Sorry, just not used to having to deal with the thought of family members having illnesses and such. Hope all goes well Dama, my prayers for you and yours

Yeah I think my grandma is going to pull through. She's got full blown diabetes but it is treatable. She's taking pills and going on a new diet to help lower her blood sugar. She's had several heart attacks and a stroke....and she's still perfectly fine. So I think she can pull through this to.

 

I hope your grandfather pulls through. He should though......grandpa's are always tough old bastards. My grandpa had a heart attack in 1989...he drove himself to the fucking hospital with a stick shift to get it taken care of......I'm amazed.

[Guest The Winter Of My Discontent]

So Then I find out my best friend has a few months to live. No not a human, man's best friend. 

 

You don't understand how I am with animals. I usually care for my animals more than most humans. I love my dogs and this is my favorite dog. He's always there for me. He never judges me and he's always trusting and always loves me no matter what. He puts all of his faith into me to take care of him and now when it's crucial I can't save him. It sucks because he's not in any pain. I don't want him to be but he's going to be happy and bounding one day and then the next day he's not going to wake up. Or he's going to be laying around doing nothing and then be excited he's going on a car ride..just so I can take him to be killed.

God I can't stand it. I love that dog and I don't want to lose him...he trusts me and I've let him down.

Dude.....man.....dude.....

 

*bites lip*

 

Go out and find a mate. Its not like you're some hideous freak...so quit acting like one. Don't set the basis for your life around an animal...humans have so much more to offer. Your dog is your best friend? C'mon man....thats foolish.

 

Humans > Animals

 

For more reason that one.

I didn't expect anything from you. And I didn't get anything. I'm shocked.

Of course I have a human best friend.

Haven't you ever heard that a dog is man's best friend? That's where I got that phrase from.

Whereas my human best friend can act like a jackass my dog will never turn on me.

God don't turn this thread into what you turn all of my other threads into...I'm really not in the mood.

If you don't have anything relavent to add then keep your god damn mouth shut. This will not turn into another pissing match like you do to me everytime I post. Back the fuck up.

I am honestly trying to encourage you to do something about your porblems. Go out, have some fun, It seems like you NEVER do that. But if you'd prefer to be a backwards hick, then go right ahead. I have sincere intentions.

[Damaramu 0]

So Then I find out my best friend has a few months to live. No not a human, man's best friend. 

 

You don't understand how I am with animals. I usually care for my animals more than most humans. I love my dogs and this is my favorite dog. He's always there for me. He never judges me and he's always trusting and always loves me no matter what. He puts all of his faith into me to take care of him and now when it's crucial I can't save him. It sucks because he's not in any pain. I don't want him to be but he's going to be happy and bounding one day and then the next day he's not going to wake up. Or he's going to be laying around doing nothing and then be excited he's going on a car ride..just so I can take him to be killed.

God I can't stand it. I love that dog and I don't want to lose him...he trusts me and I've let him down.

Dude.....man.....dude.....

 

*bites lip*

 

Go out and find a mate. Its not like you're some hideous freak...so quit acting like one. Don't set the basis for your life around an animal...humans have so much more to offer. Your dog is your best friend? C'mon man....thats foolish.

 

Humans > Animals

 

For more reason that one.

I didn't expect anything from you. And I didn't get anything. I'm shocked.

Of course I have a human best friend.

Haven't you ever heard that a dog is man's best friend? That's where I got that phrase from.

Whereas my human best friend can act like a jackass my dog will never turn on me.

God don't turn this thread into what you turn all of my other threads into...I'm really not in the mood.

If you don't have anything relavent to add then keep your god damn mouth shut. This will not turn into another pissing match like you do to me everytime I post. Back the fuck up.

I am honestly trying to encourage you to do something about your porblems. Go out, have some fun, It seems like you NEVER do that. But if you'd prefer to be a backwards hick, then go right ahead. I have sincere intentions.

Sure you do. Excuse me if I don't believe a god damn word you just said. You've proven your intentions to me in the past. And making a post like that? What do you expect my reaction to be?

"Oh you're right Banky! Fuck the stupid animal! I hope he dies! I'll go out and get laid!"

No I'm not going to do that.

I do go out and have fun. But when I'm at home who's there with me? My dog. I love the dog and it's killing me that he's dying.

I made this post so that I could vent my feelings to others, perhaps gain a little comfort, and see if anyone else is having trouble.

Not to have somebody go "It's just a damn dog! Get a life!"

Oh and there you go with the backwards hick comments. STOP POSTING IN THIS THREAD IF ALL YOU'RE GOING TO DO IS CAUSE TROUBLE.

[Guest The Winter Of My Discontent]

Sure you do. Excuse me if I don't believe a god damn word you just said. You've proven your intentions to me in the past. And making a post like that? What do you expect my reaction to be?

"Oh you're right Banky! Fuck the stupid animal! I hope he dies! I'll go out and get laid!"

No I'm not going to do that.

I do go out and have fun. But when I'm at home who's there with me? My dog. I love the dog and it's killing me that he's dying.

I made this post so that I could vent my feelings to others, perhaps gain a little comfort, and see if anyone else is having trouble.

Not to have somebody go "It's just a damn dog! Get a life!"

Oh and there you go with the backwards hick comments. STOP POSTING IN THIS THREAD IF ALL YOU'RE GOING TO DO IS CAUSE TROUBLE.

I have never told you to forget your dog. I haven't even insulted your dog. I am sorry your dog is dying. Your post describing your dog was a tad cryptic and creepy...I'm sorry I feel that way. BUT, I did honestly mean that I think you need to just chill out and LIVE LIFE. It seems (I could be wrong) that you live in this little bubble where you refuse to take any real chances, or do anything that might be considered remotely daring. I just thing you are short changing yourself in terms of living. This goes back to the Outkast thread. You just seem so rigidly coonservative that you like white bread and vanilla ice cream. Go out, get more wordly, experience life.

 

That was my point.

[Damaramu 0]

Sure you do. Excuse me if I don't believe a god damn word you just said. You've proven your intentions to me in the past. And making a post like that? What do you expect my reaction to be?

"Oh you're right Banky! Fuck the stupid animal! I hope he dies! I'll go out and get laid!"

No I'm not going to do that.

I do go out and have fun. But when I'm at home who's there with me? My dog. I love the dog and it's killing me that he's dying.

I made this post so that I could vent my feelings to others, perhaps gain a little comfort, and see if anyone else is having trouble.

Not to have somebody go "It's just a damn dog! Get a life!"

Oh and there you go with the backwards hick comments. STOP POSTING IN THIS THREAD IF ALL YOU'RE GOING TO DO IS CAUSE TROUBLE.

I have never told you to forget your dog. I haven't even insulted your dog. I am sorry your dog is dying. Your post describing your dog was a tad cryptic and creepy...I'm sorry I feel that way. BUT, I did honestly mean that I think you need to just chill out and LIVE LIFE. It seems (I could be wrong) that you live in this little bubble where you refuse to take any real chances, or do anything that might be considered remotely daring. I just thing you are short changing yourself in terms of living. This goes back to the Outkast thread. You just seem so rigidly coonservative that you like white bread and vanilla ice cream. Go out, get more wordly, experience life.

 

That was my point.

Well you're wrong. I go out and I do shit all the time. I have fun with my life. Just because I don't watch MTV, smoke pot, get wasted, or keep up with slang doesn't really mean that I don't do anything.

I go to school, I go to work. I go hang out with my friends and I spend time by myself. What the fuck is wrong with that? Am I missing something in here? Am I doing something wrong? Because it looks to me like I'm having fun with my life there. It looks like I'm doing what I want to do. I don't know exactly what you want me to do by being daring?

Not go to school and work and just party 24/7? Is that what you want me to do?

[Guest The Winter Of My Discontent]

Well you're wrong. I go out and I do shit all the time. I have fun with my life. Just because I don't watch MTV, smoke pot, get wasted, or keep up with slang doesn't really mean that I don't do anything.

I go to school, I go to work. I go hang out with my friends and I spend time by myself. What the fuck is wrong with that? Am I missing something in here? Am I doing something wrong? Because it looks to me like I'm having fun with my life there. It looks like I'm doing what I want to do. I don't know exactly what you want me to do by being daring?

Not go to school and work and just party 24/7? Is that what you want me to do?

Good. I am glad you go out. That is more than I thought you did. I made an assumption, and was wrong. If you're happy, I have no place to say shit.

 

Enjoy.

[Damaramu 0]

Well you're wrong. I go out and I do shit all the time. I have fun with my life. Just because I don't watch MTV, smoke pot, get wasted, or keep up with slang doesn't really mean that I don't do anything.

I go to school, I go to work. I go hang out with my friends and I spend time by myself. What the fuck is wrong with that? Am I missing something in here? Am I doing something wrong? Because it looks to me like I'm having fun with my life there. It looks like I'm doing what I want to do. I don't know exactly what you want me to do by being daring?

Not go to school and work and just party 24/7? Is that what you want me to do?

Good. I am glad you go out. That is more than I thought you did. I made an assumption, and was wrong. If you're happy, I have no place to say shit.

 

Enjoy.

That's good. Because I had no clue what you meant by daring.

I go to concerts, I go to football games, I go to the movies, I go to the gym, I just go and hang out, I go to parties, I go paintballing, I go out to eat, I didn't know what the hell you meant by be daring. But I am at heart a homebody. I like to go out about 3-4 times a week but the rest of the time I enjoy spending it at home. Why? Because everything I want is here. And I don't have to put up with anybody's shit. I can just do my own thing. I can't be the only one who enjoys it more at home than out. And who's always here when I'm at home by my side? The dog.

[Steviekick 0]

Hey Damaramu...

 

It's perfectly normal to be so upset about your dog's health and such. One of the reasons why we are so attatched to them is because we spend so much time and effort taking care of them, and they like you said before are so loyal towards us. People and their animals have special bonds. If you are upset, you have every right to be. Don't tell let anyone ell you otherwise.

[Guest HungryJack]

Good year so far. Unlike most people here, i'm comfortable with who I am, and the life I lead. Regardless of what others both outside the boundaries of my home and on the internet might have to say about it.

[Damaramu 0]

Good year so far. Unlike most people here, i'm comfortable with who I am, and the life I lead. Regardless of what others both outside the boundaries of my home and on the internet might have to say about it.

Hey pal...I'm very happy with the life I lead to...so I'm happy for you.

I'm just not liking my shitty start to the year. Maybe all the bad is coming at the beginning and I'll have a happy and blissful year with nothing but joy........oh who am I kidding.....I'm going to die before I turn 21.

[Guest HungryJack]

Good stuff. Have a good year, bro. Having a pet die, or any loved one for that matter sucks, but the sympathy-mongering here is kinda creepy.

[Damaramu 0]

Good stuff. Have a good year, bro. Having a pet die, or any loved one for that matter sucks, but the sympathy-mongering here is kinda creepy.

I'm just trying to get someone to help me feel better. But it's obviously not going to work because I don't think anyone can make me feel better.

When it comes to real life I can't really say all I want to say.

However on here I can pour everything out because I don't actually know any of you. You can't use my misery against me in life and all you can really do is type back to me. It's the perfect forum......I can say whatever I want and not worry about it affecting my life at all.

I told everyone in real life and all I could get was "I'm so sorry." which is good but doesn't take the sting away. So I came on here and got much of the same.

I'm thankful but I guess nothing will take the sting away...it's just going to be there no matter what.

[Guest HungryJack]

Time heals all wounds. Sounds trite, but it's true i guess.

[Sandman9000 0]

Well, I still don't have my flying car, so fuck 2004.

[Gert T 0]

You know I didn't want to break the seriousness of this thread, but I knew a dude who had all of this shit happen to him in three days of 2004.

 

Jan 1st- After bringing his g/f to a party where his other "friend" was also at, dumbass gets really drunk and lights the carpet on fire. He is promptly kicked out of the house.

 

Jan 2nd- Coming home from a night out drinking, he and two other guys blow a tire so badly it bends the rim. Being Mr. Goodwrench, he gets underneath the car. The jack breaks and the car literally falls on his face. He has to get 20 stitches and probably plastic surgery on his eye. When at the emergency room, when bloodwork is done, his BAC is .027, three times Ohio's limit and not good considering he's 20.

 

Jan 3rd- After what happens the previous two nights he decides to not drink too much. Probably has about six beers and then goes out to get another case for the people he was playing cards with. He gets pulled over, officers see the beer and test him. He cannot do the field sobrieity test because of his swollen eye, so he blows a .010. Hello DWI.

 

Now I don't know how his 4-12th have gone but 2004 has been a hella year for that guy!

[Guest Agent of Oblivion]

The jack breaks and the car literally falls on his face. He has to get 20 stitches and probably plastic surgery on his eye

 

Oh SHIT.

 

I must be one of the few folks who've had a great start. Lost a few more pounds, and got a new truck, which is mighty swank.

[Giuseppe Zangara 0]

I was immortalized in wrestling message board fan fiction, so no complaints here.

[2GOLD 0]

Eh, I'm not dead and I still have my friends. I could be doing much worse plus having a job that allows me to work mostly at home helps.

 

And sorry about your dog Dama, I understand and sometimes it does help to just write the stuff out. Don't worry about anyone attacking you, just don't respond to it and deal with the emotions you have to deal with.

 

The year will go better, all years have one point where they get really really bad.