Nighthawk

You know, I really like this chick M.I.A. I don't know enough about her to know whether this is guilty/shameful/prideful. That's comforting, to not even care. That paper planes song from the Pineapple Express trailer, you know I hate weed, but I won't lie, I'd get high to that shit all day.

That's true of my interest in it.

You look older.

Oh, if we do it, we ain't using the free acid I get from homeless people. Hell no. But I'm sure it won't be too hard to find.

I've gotten acid for free... multiple times. I'm very anti drug, but I might be persuaded to do it with you.

I do that because I have to sometimes, but I hate it.

... all the way to the bank.

I've bought liquor early in the morning (to drink), and never got sad eyes. Still, I think middle eastern liquor store owners are the most cold blooded motherfuckers on the planet. They kind of have to be. Anyway, I justified it with the old Lionel Hutz "It's 9:30 in the morning!" "Yeah, but I haven't slept in days." Buying liquor for emergencies is a fool's game, though. If you really want it, it's not hard to get, no matter what time it is. Especially in LA.

I'd be into it. That's some dada shit.

You actually do want to go to the tenderloin, if you're into... that sort of thing. It's pretty entertaining.

Exactly. It's liquor that will fuck me up. Beer is and always will be cool.

I suppose I should say "if you're already depressed, it won't make it better".

You're a fucking unoriginal bastard.

Hey, I have classes cause of my DUI, I know all about that. But it does make you depressed.

Yeah, I'm the opposite. Guilt makes me drink more, in a "Fuck it now, man." kind of way. That's actually pretty common, to drink because you're depressed, when alcohol is itself a depressant... you can see where that leads. Besides, alcohol is a very personal comfort. For example Marney is a complete alcoholic, and she seems very successful. I would probably be better off in the long run if I had never tried it, but reports of my alcoholism have been greatly exaggerated.

I mean, hell, after the DUI, I've never really let the alcohol fuck up anything for me, except occasionally relationships which I can patch up with ease. I was totally out of control with it at one point, but I'm learning not to feel guilty. I can drink in moderation, I just feel more comfortable drinking in moderation all the time, as opposed to holding off so I say "Well, now's my chance to get drunk, better do it right." and then wake up two days later in agonizing pain.

I've come to the conclusion that I will likely never quit drinking completely. The trick is finding healthier patterns within the drinking. For me... straight up Dan Connor. And for all the guilt some of us feel over being alcoholics, take a look at our grandfather's generation. Now those were drinkers.

I used to go to popscene a lot, and every single time I'd get a good story out of it. I've been kicked out twice (it is kind of a happy friendly club). I should start going there again.

Deal.

What are you, the female Battlenuts? There's no glory in being disliked.

I just looked him up to see if I agree, and apparently he's going to play Keith Moon... interesting choice.

I heard about this in a Cracked article the other day, and it's become very important that I find it. Suffikator That is the most metal beer ever. I would drink that exclusively... if only that were possible.

Recently I blacked out and I was talking about killing myself and things, and I was actually in very high spirits when I started drinking. That was good cause I had thought that it was the bitter misanthropy and cynicism making me an asshole when I drink, but even now that I feel really very nice and good all the time, it still turned me into a fiend. Good to know. That night I also did not set my alarm properly (surprise), yet was woken by my internal alarm at 6 am (granted, I woke up off the floor, but it was at the correct time). I found this to be a sort of pinnacle of binge drinking... from happy to suicidal for no reason/passed out on the floor, up in time for work. It was then I modified my habits severely, to the Inverted Stanhope (never get all the way drunk, just have a few beers every night). It's been working great so far.

Fine. Just give me as much background on her as you feel comfortable with.

Would it be so hard to say I know you from somewhere? I mean, I'm sure you post on other boards... But I guess I could try, if that's how you like it. I mean, coming in cold, not even supposed to be knowing she's depressed, that's trying to ice skate up hill. But if anyone can do it, it's me.