Things heated up around the X-mas party. Lots of booze, dancing and good times. But X-mas we were calling/texting one another every weekend, as we missed one another. But she would never come to SEE me...that would make it to real. She would only give veiled references about us, otherwise it would be too real. When things would heat up so much that she would HAVE to recognize them/comment on them, she'd buckle. Go back to the boyfriend excuse and say that it isn't right, she has to give him time. He's younger than her, more immature, just out of college.
Wait, you mean to tell me that your in your 20's doing all this bullshit (if it's not a work).
Why do you think she'd fucking want a cutter in her 20's. How fucking mature are you when your doing the same shit 13 year old girls do.