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Dangerous D wanted this posted (or maybe not) who knows:

"A new begining..."

 

 

One chapter of my life is finally over. I finally feel like me again. After almost 1 1/2 years, I finally feel like me. It was weird seeing her in the court room...crazy almost. We made eyecontact briefly. I didn't spot her at first, I was overwhelmed by the amount of beautiful young females who had already give up a part of their life for a child. But when I made eye contact with her, I won't lie. I love that girl. I don't think I will ever be fully over her. I know, all the fucked up shit thats happened (mostly my fault), all the stress i've went through, but fuck it. That girl meant more to me than any other woman on this Earth sans my Mother and my sister. She looked beautiful as always. Some people think she is beautiful, others don't see what I see. But fuck them, I know beauty.

 

She is the most beautiful woman i've ever known. It was so crazy, sitting there, behind her. All that we have done together, all the sex, kisses, hugs and love. All the tears, and deep late night talks. She's the only girl i've lived with, and man...I just don't understand how easy it is for her to just walk away from it all like this. I know I fucked up bad...real bad. I've fixed that...will nix that i'm still a work in progress. We all our. To air is human to forgive is devine. Or something like that. I remember her all the way from my first year of middle school. She rode my bus, her brother pretty much ruled it. He didn't like me too much then...i'm sure he loathes me now.

 

I always kinda had a crush on her...I think all guys can relate to that, the prettiest girl on your school bus and the thoughts of how fucking boss it would be to be with her. It was almost 7 years later that we finally did hook up. Under the craziest of circumstances. I won't go into great detail, but her brother ended up in jail, and she got into a wreck with another dude and my sister. I would go over there prior to the wreck and mostly chill with her lil brother...but I was there for her. Because I liked her. So much. And she liked me, thats what everyone said.

 

 

But I was just shy...dude I remember the day we finally first kissed like yesterday. We were laying on a couch, innocently flirting. She leaned in, and I said fuck it. I went for it. The next 8 months were the best and worst 8 months of my life...and out of it came a beautiful baby boy, who I will more than likely never get to see... I'll never be his dad. Its something I have the live with the rest of my life...another skelton in my closet. I feel nothing but sorrow when I think of these memories, but at this point I realise that its over. She doesn't want child support, which pretty much insures she will do what she can to keep me out of my son's life. I know I could fight it probably, but I dunno.

 

You guys don't know the half of it, and you never will. You can judge me, say whatever the fuck you want about me, BUT I'M THE ONE WHO HAS TO LIVE WITH IT. ME. Its all on me. All I can do now is push forward, and stuff these bad memories deep into the back of my mind, and turn over a new leaf. Alas, I finally feel like i'm me again...I claim to be an Athiest, and do not believe in worshipping a deity, but deep down I do. Deep down I pray to God, and I thank God when I feel blessed. What God that is I am not sure, but he knows who he is and he hears my voice. He reads my thoughts.

 

My heart is pure, and I know i've went through everything i've went through for a reason. That reason is to make me stronger. A stronger person than I was before. Mentally tough, unbreakable. I know what I have to do in order to improve my life, and right what wrongs that are still capable of being righted (YEAH MOTHER FUCKER I MADE A WORD UP!). I'm gonna end this with the most appropriate quotes possible to officially put behind me all that brings me sorrow...

 

"A place to spend my quiet nights, time to unwind,

So much pressure in this life of mine,

I cry at times, I once contimplated suicide,

And woulda tried, but when I held that nine,

All I could see was my mama's eyes,

No one knows my struggle, they only see the trouble,

Not knowin' its hard to carry on when noone loves you,

Picture me inside the misery of poverty,

No man alive has ever witnessed struggles i've survived,

Prayin' hard for better days, promised to hold on,

Me and my dogs AIN'T HAVE A CHOICE BUT TO ROLL ON."

--Tupac Shakur, Thugz Mansion

 

"Raisin' my fingers to critics,

Raisin' my head to the sky,

'BIG I did it!' Multi before I die,

Nigga, no lie, just know I,

Chose my own fate,

I drove by the fork in the road and went straight."

--Jay-Z, Renegades

 

 

One love all,

 

-D

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Being a father...okay, you don't even really need to be a father to agree with this...I couldn't imagine not seeing my 2 kids everyday. Gotta curb the bullshit that keeps you apart from them.

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Yo son life is rough unless you hit them L's!

 

 

Nuttin but some gangsters, smokin and ridin (YO!)

Come on get high with us (NIGGA!)

Come on and ride with us (BITCHES!)

Cause, we're.. nuttin but some gangsters (YO!) smokin and ridin (YO!)

Come on get high with us (C'MON NIGGAZ!)

Come on and ride with us (YO!)

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"Raisin' my fingers to critics,

Raisin' my head to the sky,

'BIG I did it!' Multi before I die,

Nigga, no lie, just know I,

Chose my own fate,

I drove by the fork in the road and went straight."

--Jay-Z, Renegades

*Price is Right horn*

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Guest Felonies!
Its something I have the live with the rest of my life...another skelton in my closet.

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We all our. To air is human to forgive is devine.

SPELL.

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Guest Princess Leena
I kinda feel sorry for Don. Whether he's a bro or not, the fact that he can't see his son is a bit fucked up.

 

What's fucked up is people like him having kids in the first place (at least at his age and maturity level). Like that kid will have any future.

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I think you're confusing "worrying" with random commentary. I doubt anybody cares about Donny all that much.

 

And I'm laughing at you talking about how it doesn't matter if you're never going to meet the person. So does that mean that all of your call-outs have meant nothing because you never plan to beat up the people you say you would? SHOCKER.

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Dunno. Aside from not getting my sense of humor at first - I thought DRH was pretty alright. Then again, I didn't follow him around and read every single one of his posts. *shrug*

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I think you're confusing "worrying" with random commentary. I doubt anybody cares about Donny all that much.

 

And I'm laughing at you talking about how it doesn't matter if you're never going to meet the person. So does that mean that all of your call-outs have meant nothing because you never plan to beat up the people you say you would? SHOCKER.

 

 

I'm laughing at you actually taking my call outs serious. You guys are gulliable as fuck, and WP proves it.

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